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Jan. 8th, 2006 08:17 pm"If you live in the past, you die in the present"
- Bill Belichick, head coach of the New England Patriots
Ok, so he was talking about football, but still, I believe it can apply to regular life. While I know I can't make-up to my kids for not being there for them everyday anymore, I don't know if I can get over feeling like I ought to find a way to do that. And my job doesn't help me walk away from this mind set.
Not only does management have a "what have you done for me lately" attitude, they aren't above holding a grudge. That's a bit easier for me to deal with, what with not being able to change the laws of physics, be a mindreader, or intuitively know how to deal with 15 year old hardware that follows proprietary standards and for which we lack documentation. But I fully expect come April for the third year in a row to get dinged for not being able to meet expectations, regardless of how unrealistic they have been.
Which makes me wonder, at what point does the difference between realty and people's misperceptions of it stop to matter? At what point does a person's determination, or stubbornness, or delusion become more significant than the reality of the situation?
And people wonder why I don't like to socialize.
- Bill Belichick, head coach of the New England Patriots
Ok, so he was talking about football, but still, I believe it can apply to regular life. While I know I can't make-up to my kids for not being there for them everyday anymore, I don't know if I can get over feeling like I ought to find a way to do that. And my job doesn't help me walk away from this mind set.
Not only does management have a "what have you done for me lately" attitude, they aren't above holding a grudge. That's a bit easier for me to deal with, what with not being able to change the laws of physics, be a mindreader, or intuitively know how to deal with 15 year old hardware that follows proprietary standards and for which we lack documentation. But I fully expect come April for the third year in a row to get dinged for not being able to meet expectations, regardless of how unrealistic they have been.
Which makes me wonder, at what point does the difference between realty and people's misperceptions of it stop to matter? At what point does a person's determination, or stubbornness, or delusion become more significant than the reality of the situation?
And people wonder why I don't like to socialize.
