time passes by

Another weekend has come and gone. I spend time with one of my kids both days, shopped, cleaned (some), watched two sports competitions on TV, went to the movies, and accomplished some other random stuff which warranted a check on the old To Do List.  And, for the most part, my initial reaction is "so what"?   

I am ambivalently caught between "it's not enough" and "it doesn't matter".  I used to write this off to lack of a girlfriend, or even much social interaction of any sort. Now, neither of those don't seem to hold the promise of Making the Difference any more than anything else does or has. At work I am simply waiting until the end of July when I will be fully vested in my 401k, and then I can start a new job search.  But I am still not sure what--or where--I should be searching.

So it's day-to-day, doing what I have to & trying not to drag others down.